Poems
Mortality Mansions Poems by Donald Hall
Otherwise by Jane Kenyon
in the taxi one block from her townhouse for their
first lunch together, in a hotel dining room
with a room key in his pocket,midtown traffic gridlocked and was abruptly still.
For one moment before klaxons started honking,
a prophetic voice spoke in his mind's ear despite
his pulse's erotic thudding:"The misery you undertake this afternoon
will accompany you to the ends of your lives.
She knew what she did when she agreed to this lunch,
although she will not admit it;and you've constructed your playlet a thousand times:
cocktails, an omelet, wine; the revelation
of a room key; the elevator rising as
the penis elevates; the skinflushed, the door fumbled at, the handbag dropped; the first
kiss with open mouths, nakedness, swoon, thrust-and-catch;
endorphins followed by endearments; a brief nap;
another fit; restorationof clothes, arrangements for another encounter,
the taxi back, and the furtive kiss of good-bye.
Then, by turn: tears, treachery, anger, betrayal;
marriages and houses destroyed;small children abandoned and inconsolable,
their foursquare estates disestablished forever;
the unreadable advocates; the wretchedness
of passion outworn; anguished nightssleepless in a bare room; whiskey, meth, cocaine; new
love, essayed in loneliness with miserable
strangers, that comforts nothing but skin; hours with sons
and daughters studious alwaysto maintain distrust; the daily desire to die
and the daily agony of the requirement
to survive, until only the quarrel endures."
Prophecy stopped; traffic started.
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I looked forward to a cool Olympian age
for release from my obsessions.
Ho, ho, ho. At sixty the body's one desire
sustains my pulse, not to mention
my groin, as much as it ever did, if not quite
so often. When I gaze at your
bottom as you bend gardening, or at your breasts,
or at your face with its helmet
of sensuous hair, or at your eyes proposing
the text of our next encounter,
my attention departs from history, baseball,
food, poetry, and deathless fame.
Let us pull back the blanket, slide off our bluejeans,
assume familiar positions,
and celebrate lust in Mortality Mansions.
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Daisies made out of resin,
hairnets and motor oil,
Barbie dolls, green
garden chairs,
and forty-one brands of deodorant.
Three hundred years ago
I was hedging and ditching in Devon.
I lacked freedom of worship,
and freedom to trade molasses
for rum, for slaves, for molasses.
"I will sail to Massachusetts
to build the Kingdom
of Heaven on Earth!"
The side of a hill swung open.
It was Woolworth's!
I followed this vision to Boston.
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bags of groceries beside me,
I saw on a lawn
the body of a gray-haired man
twisted beside his power mower.
A woman twisted
her hands above him, mouth wide
with a cry.
She bent close to him, straightened,
bent again, straightened,
and an ambulance
stopped at the curb.
I drove past them slowly
while helpers
kneeled by the man.
Over the stretcher
the lawnmower continued to throb
and absently
the hand of the old woman
caressed the shuddering
handle. Back.
I put the soup cans in order
on the green shelves —
pickles, canned milk, peas,
basil, and tarragon.
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in villages throughout
the province, from Toe
Harbor, past the
Elbow Lakes, to Eyelid Hill
when you touch me, there.
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as we walk past the line at the movie,
and go back to examining their fingernails.
Their boyfriends are combing their hair,
and chew gum
as if they meant to insult us.
Today we made love all day.
I look at you. You are smiling at the sidewalk,
dear wrinkled face.
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With a glass of wine
And listened for the bobolink
And crushed garlic in late sunshine.
I watched her cooking, from my chair.
She pressed her lips
Together, reached for kitchenware,
And tasted sauce from fingertips.
"It's ready now. Come on," she said.
"You light the candle."
We ate, and talked, and went to bed,
And slept. It was a miracle.
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from Her Long Illness(Donald Hall) "Dying is simple," she said.
"What's worst is ... the separation."
When she no longer spoke,
they lay alone together, touching,
and she fixed on him
her beautiful enormous round brown eyes,
shining, unblinking,
and passionate with love and dread.
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Finger. Inject insulin.
Glue teeth in.
Smoke cigarette.
Shudder and fret.
Feed old dog. Write syllabic
On self-pity. Get Boston Globe.
Drink coffee. Eat bagel. Read
At nervous speed.
Smoke cigarette.
Never forget
To measure oneself against Job.
Drag out afternoon.
Walk dog. Don't write.
Turn off light.
Smoke cigarette
Watching sun set.
Wait for the fucking moon.
Nuke lasagna. Pace and curse.
For solitude's support
Drink Taylor's port.
Smoke cigarette.
Sleep. Sweat.
Nightmare until dog whimpers.
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in V's underneath
the garden;s rage of blossom.
After her death, after
the freezes of many winters,
her bricks rise and dip
undulant by the wellhead,
in summer softened by moss,
and in deep June I see
preterite, revenant poppies
fix, waver, fix, waver, fix...
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of the centers of daisies, yellow roses
pressing from a clear bowl. All day
we lay on the bed, my hand
stroking the deep
gold of your thighs and your back.
We slept and woke
entering the golden room together,
lay down in it breathing
quickly, then
slowly again,
caressing and dozing, your hand sleepily
touching my hair now.
We made in those days
tiny identical rooms inside our bodies
which the men who uncover our graves
will find in a thousand years,
shining and whole.
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on two strong legs.
It might have been
otherwise. I ate
cereal, sweet
milk, ripe, flawless
peach. It might
have been otherwise.
I took the dog uphill
to the birch wood.
All morning I did
the work I love.
At noon I lay down
with my mate. It might
have been otherwise.
We ate dinner together
at a table with silver
candlesticks. It might
have been otherwise.
I slept in a bed
in a room with paintings
on the walls, and
planned another day
just like this day.
But one day, I know,
it will be otherwise.
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Poems Copyright © Donald Hall 2006: "When the Young Husband", "When I Was Young", "Woolworth's", "The Green Shelf", "Feête", "The Young Watch Us", "Summer Kitchen", "Dying Is Simple, She Said" (excerpt from Her Long Illness), "Deathwork", "Gold". Used with Permission. All Rights Reserved.
"Freezes and Junes" Copyright © Donald Hall 2011. Used with Permission. All Rights Reserved.
Jane Kenyon, "Otherwise" from Jane Kenyon: Collected Poems. Copyright © 2005 by The Estate of Jane Kenyon. Used by Permission of The Permissions Company, Inc., on behalf of Graywolf Press, Minneapolis, Minnesota, USA, graywolfpress.org. All rights reserved worldwide.